October 2011
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10/7/11 - 10/9/11
failed.
Oct 9th
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10/6/11 intake
Breakfast: egg ham & cheese bagel  + caramel iced latte w whipped cream medium Lunch: caesar salad Dinner: house salad with fried calamari Dessert: cannoli Drinks: water fucked up big time :( calories aren’t being counted today.. paying for this tomorrow. feel like shit & 100% regret it..
Oct 7th
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10/5/11 intake
Breakfast: none Lunch: none Dinner: 2 pc whole weat bread 120 calories, 2 slices of lean turkey, 1 table spoon of mustard 0 calories Snacks: none Drink: water *ending up barely eating yesterday, so around 2am i started shaking to the point i couldn’t even see straight. fucked up and ate 2 pc whole wheat bread 120 calories + 2 slices of cheese 130 calories + 2 slices of lean turkey + 1 table...
Oct 5th
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10/4/11 intake
Breakfast: none Lunch: none Snacks: 3 pretzels 60 calories, 2 pieces of gum 20 calories  Drinks: iced coffee with sugar size small 100 calories total: 180
Oct 5th
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so this is it.
it’s 3:25am and so far today i’ve consumed less then 200 calories. considering i went from probably over the 2000s everyday to 200 over night, it’s already taking a toll on my body. my head is pounding. my body aches. my mouth is dry. i guess you could say i’m in “pain”.. but this is a good kind of pain. getting rid of the fat once and for all. <3
Oct 4th
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10/3/11 intake
Breakfast: none Lunch: none Dinner: lettuce 16 calories; 1/4 cup of cheese 110 Snacks: 2 pieces of gum 20 calories; 1 pretzel 20 calories  Drinks: water 0 calories total:166 calories
Oct 3rd
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day 1.
it’s 2:27 am, and i have a hungry feeling in the pit of my stomach. i’m not going to give in. this is it, this is the beginning. no more binging. no more junk. no more soda. just strictly salads and water. no more being lazy, no more saying “i’ll start tomorrow, one cookie won’t hurt me”. no more of that. it’s almost bitter sweet.. as sad as that may...
Oct 3rd
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10/2/11; binge day
Breakfast: none Lunch: kfc; 9 chicken wings, mashed potato’s with gravy, macaroni Dinner: none Snack(s): 6pm; 1 slice of pumpkin roll 2nd snack 11pm; 2 slices of pumpkin roll and a glass of chocolate milk last day of calories not being counted and being fat. GOODBYE fat, HELLO skinny
Oct 2nd
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daily intake.
starting this either later today, or tomorrow.
Oct 2nd
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diagnoses
i’ve been diagnosed with the following: - social anxiety disorder - post traumatic stress disorder - depression
Oct 2nd
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personal stats.
Height: 5’4 CW: 175 (unacceptable) as of oct 2nd, 2011 BMI: 29.2 as of oct 2nd, 2011 HW: current LW:- 130 last major binge: - today Last small binge: -
Oct 2nd
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ten facts about myself.
in no specific order. 1. i have extreme hate towards people as a whole, because of what people have done to me in my past, which makes a lot of people dislike me and not want to be around me. 2. my father is an addict. knowing i can’t help him, hurts me more than anyone will ever know. 3. i’m extremely shy in large groups of people and i often feel like an outcast. so i try to avoid...
Oct 2nd